RichiPedia

I am lying in bed idly. A few random thoughts rule my head. I don’t remember putting the lights out. I begin to fidget with the switch of my bedside lamp. *click* On.  *click* Off.  Repeat. My phone beeps. It’s him. Hi . My heart races exceptionally fast; it might as well give Usain Bolt a run for his money. Oh, no. I am just exaggerating here. It’s the first time in days that he’s bothered to text me. We talk sometimes. No. I talk. Always. He just listens. Sometimes, he speaks.  But, he never talks.  I don’t reply immediately. I take my own sweet time to type out a text. Two minutes later my thumb hovers over the send button.  Damn, that will look desperate. I retype Hi at least 7 times, using different textual tones each time. (What are textual tones, anyway? We don’t know but we still know, right?!) After   twenty minutes of contemplation whether to punctuate using a full stop or an exclamation mark, I hit send. Hi. :) The conversation ends exactly 9 minutes later. L

What is ego? It is essentially the definition of you, for you and by you. It might as well be the factor that separates you from the rest of the world, giving you some sense of superiority over others. The roots of human ego lie in the 3 M’s: Me, Mine and Myself. The whole story begins right here. It is this ego that doesn’t let us use our full potential to nurture relationships. It prevents us from doing what is right and needful because too often, we are blinded by what we want. The ego wants to want more than it wants to have. Here, I am mostly going to talk about how ego transforms relationships and the effect it has on the people involved.    A lot of times, we find ourselves contemplating whether we should initiate or wait for the other to do so. Ending up with thoughts like “Woh bhi toh kar sakta/sakti hai. Main hi kyun karu?”  But, you know what, this happens only when someone has made us feel insignificant with their intentional or unintentional actions, leaving us

I'm sitting in the balcony of my room at Club Mahindra Binsar Villa as I write this. It is shortly after dawn and the sun is nowhere to be seen even though it is past its rise time. I'm surrounded by clouds on all four sides and I could, well, literally be on cloud nine or ten or whatever, for that matter. I hear a lot of sounds but mostly silence. It is these sounds that I love: the rain pouring hard on the wooden floor of my balcony, the peaceful nature, the distant and the distance, and most importantly the sound within myself. My personal diary that is no longer personal.  I start to feel a little cold with a drop in temperature that this rain has brought. I start to feel a little cold on the outside and the inside. By now, the clouds are engulfing me and I can hardly see beyond a few feet. Rubbing my arms to seek warmth, I grab my sweatshirt which I brought with me to the balcony, and wear it over my white tee shirt that is wrinkled from the night. I place my f

Tonight is no different.   I twist and turn in bed like every other night.   The events of the day run a recap through my subconscious mind.   Nothing special. I twist and turn as grief takes over. One quiet sob. And another. And another. Before I know it, my sister is awake, holding me tight, asking me what's wrong. She's 15. How is she supposed to understand the so-called problems of adulthood? What do I explain her?   So she just holds me close while I cry the heck out of me.   It's not the kind of crying that babies do. It's not the cry for milk or for a toy or for a video game, nor is it for a dress or a party.   It's over a guy. A lost love.   No, he wasn't my boyfriend and he never could be. There are more kinds of love that can blossom between a guy and a girl, than you think. This was one of those different kinds.   Simply because we were different - together and individually. I don't know why I cry over him but I couldn'

We have all been mad at someone or the other for some reason or the other but does that put an end to our love for them? Do we stop feeling the same for them? The answer is relative to the reason for which you’re mad at them. IF it is something that can be fixed, then the answer is NO, but surely when the damage done is irreparable, let’s take YES as the answer. People change, feelings change. Nobody can guarantee same behaviour throughout the course of a relationship. This is one solid ground for relationships falling apart. They say, "The opposite of love isn't hate. It is indifference." I am a true believer of these words but then again, sometimes, the next level indifference is called hate, or so I like to think. It's like they cease to exist for me, hence their role in my life becomes zero.   If I were to define hatred, it would be "absence of love”. It is a long ride to go from being mad at someone to hate them but there’s no looking back when you de

I could no longer hold my urge to write on this 'sensitive' topic, more so when I, myself, was going through that time of the month. You know what time of the month is, right? Let's give it the status it deserves: MENSTRUAL PERIOD is what I am referring to. After having written and re-written this article a couple of times, I finally decided to make it public, not caring for what people might say. Initially, I was worried that guys might make fun of something which is 100% NORMAL and NATURAL to happen to the fairer sex. Enough of considering menstruation a taboo; it is time we all realised that this is as natural and humanly as breathing. Everybody knows about it, everybody talks about it. But not everybody goes through it. This is well, an exclusivity for females. Now that we've established what this piece talks about, I describe in vivid detail what it feels like to bleed every month and still not die. Period. (Literally and rhetorically speaking) 1. Sit. Stand.

So, this piece came about when I was literally tired of waiting and all in vain. Hence, the title. A personal sort of writing that I cannot stop loving despite the fact it left my eyes watery for long. I love the fact how effortless this piece is without compromising with the essence of it.  Just when I thought I had lost the strength to do all-nighters,  I was introduced to the concept of time zone.  Just when I thought I was being taken for granted,  I let them take me some more. Just when I thought I was made to look desperate,  I ceased all effort to interact. Just when I thought I was losing my importance,  I tried to maintain my self esteem. Just when I thought my ego had outgrown me, I let it grow a little more. Just when I thought they didn't care any more, I became careless. Just when I thought I had been too nice,  I decided not to be any more.  Just when I thought I stopped to matter,  It stopped to matter to me. Just when I thought I needed a

No winds blown  No blown minds  No scenarios imagined  No imaginary dreams  No promises made  No forevers promised  No surprises planned  No plans surprised  No decisions taken  No taken vows  No words justified  No justified actions  No gestures appreciated  No appreciable gestures  No romantic involvement  No involvement emotional  No kisses exchanged  No exchanged warmth  No love reciprocated  No acknowledged love  No feelings felt  No felt anguish  No acceptance offered  No offered proposal No secrets untold  No told secrets  No letters received  No posted letters  No voices heard  No heard yells  No love received No sent love  No damsel in distress  No need for a fella  Nobody is here to stay And the one who stays isn't nobody. 

This morning when I opened my eyes  To see the painted grey skies  Drop by drop they started to pour  Aiming to reach the earth's deepest core  The rain that fell hard on the ground  Had me looking all around  For what I knew little about  In my heart, the slightest doubt  Clouds hung low and trees grew down The sand was red and the grass brown  As impossible it may seem to few  A mirage as beautiful as you  Just as the sunlight kisses my face  Walk with me at the slowest pace  When dusk falls and it's no more sunny Lose it all and passionately embrace me Give way for the moon, full or new  A mirage as beautiful as you.  Sit with me and let me know  Hold me tight and never let go I'll wait for the day when all falls in place  Lift your eyes and turn your gaze  Love her or love me, give me a clue A mirage as beautiful as you  Across the road, I'll watch you from a far You and her, it salts my scars  Someday, when you're not so blind See my love and keep aside your mi

The little things you do, making me smile that no one else could.  Our lives aren't composed of a few big things, they are composed of a million tiny things. This is probably the only situation where small and little things can make someone happy (pun intended). So, I pen down the little things that more often than not occupy the big spaces in my heart and life.  1. Good morning text Something as simple as a good morning text can brighten my day. It is not just a text, but also an implication that you were the first person on my mind when I woke up. It's a nice feeling to be greeted by someone right in the beginning of the day. I equally like to send and receive morning texts to people who matter.  2. Making up after a fight  You know, a fight or argument isn't all bad if you can make up well after it. The sorting of issues and resolving problems make you realise how much you mean to someone, provided you know how to read between the lines and und